Can art save you? It's enough to guide you along, for sure, or make joy and loneliness shared experiences. You picked out this hand-painted toy simply because it made you feel good, is it worth trying to define the magic of joy any further than that? It might hold you to a pretty high standard, but maybe it's just got this idea in its head that you've got the capability to make something great. Nevermind that, though. Pick up a paintbrush, it's not gonna wait for you forever!